scared

dont bring my hopes up.
this was what i wanted, but why does it seem like i dont want it anymore?

i hated you because you didn't even bother putting in the effort.
and now, you're being all nice and friendly.
not that i hate it or anything, but i'm just scared.
scared that we're gonna go through the exact same thing we did the last time.

things didn't end the way it was supposed to the last time.
you forgot about everything we did together.

i'm scared.
not because of you
but because of the fact that we're back to good friends again.

i'm scared that we'll take the same route as we did before
that just made us stuck at a dead end where there was a cliff.
the cliff that made everything crashing down for me
because you decided to climb down
and follow her at the bottom of the cliff.

what if we took that route all over again?

i'm scared.
i'm really scared.

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