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stealing

glances

showing

emotions

confessing

feelings 

caring

for you

worrying 

about you

lying 

to me

waiting

for the right time

becoming 

a lunatic 

barely breathing. 

scared

dont bring my hopes up.
this was what i wanted, but why does it seem like i dont want it anymore?

i hated you because you didn't even bother putting in the effort.
and now, you're being all nice and friendly.
not that i hate it or anything, but i'm just scared.
scared that we're gonna go through the exact same thing we did the last time.

things didn't end the way it was supposed to the last time.
you forgot about everything we did together.

i'm scared.
not because of you
but because of the fact that we're back to good friends again.

i'm scared that we'll take the same route as we did before
that just made us stuck at a dead end where there was a cliff.
the cliff that made everything crashing down for me
because you decided to climb down
and follow her at the bottom of the cliff.

what if we took that route all over again?

i'm scared.
i'm really scared.

@maryxtinylamb
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valentine + realization

happy ((belated)) valentine's day guys!

hope your day was great. this year's valentine's was great cos i received more gifts than i expected HAHA it doesnt mean anything tho. i didnt receive from anyone unexpected so it was sad lol but it's okay hahahah!!

of course like many others out there, i didnt really have a valentine. like duh, i'm single. my valentine was food cos everyone gave me food hehehe. and three of my friends who gave me valentines gifts included

"get a boyfriend soon"

in their cards so i gave them the face. you know, the face. that face. HAHAHAHHA.

valentine's this year made me realize that people actually care for me. i mean, i know that people actually do care but valentine's proved that i'm in their minds and they actually know that i exist and i'm not some outsider.

but (i know i'm not supposed to start a sentence with a 'but') this year's valentines made me realize something else. warning: this second part of my post will be kind of harsh for some people, so please dont take them to heart and start hating me.

i know everyone wants people to listen to their stories, their adventures, their embarrassing moments, their everything. but what i realized is that people dont really give a damn about your shit.

i was talking to my friends about my cousin(s) and they tried hard to look interested.

here's the dirty fact:

they're not interested at all.

i know my stuff and we dapitos have thing specialty of 'reading minds' ((not literally)) but i know that they're the least interested of what i was saying.

tell me; who would want to listen to a person talking about his/her cousin? no one. why? because it's not related to them at all. i mean- think about it. would you listen to something not related to you at all? maybe it might to some people, depends on what kind of a person you are.

if i tell you, "hey! i did you know that my friend came to donate to me earlier on?" will you be the least interested? maybe. you may be interested of who that friend was.

but if i tell you, "hey! did you know that my  sister came to donate to me earlier on?" will you now be the least interested.  i doubt so. simply because my sister isn't yours. why would you care?

and so if you want to tell someone about your adventures and stuff you did with some adults, i suggest you write a book about it instead.

/ahem indirecting people ahem/

@marytinylamb

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trip to the philippines pt. II

back with the second part of trip to the philippines :)

so on the 24th as everyone knows, it's christmas eve. it's my 2nd(?) time celebrating christmas in the philippines coz i think the first time me and my sis were super young and we don't remember a thing coz all we knew that time was "googoogahgah".
so i considered this my first time spending christmas in the philippines with my cousins :D apparently, it was their first time celebrating together too, coz they usually celebrate new year together instead of christmas. HAHA.

we dressed up like rich people that night HAHAH wearing pretty party dresses and stuff (but the guys didnt wear tuxes coz idek hahah)

it was awkward wearing makeup by the way.

so yay!! christmas eve ended quickly coz we were having sooooooo much fun <3 played with humungous sparklers and lit up fireworks too!! (can't do those in singapore :p) so...... time to tell my boring story about 2013's christmas.

spent the whole christmas at one of my aunt's house doing nothing lmao. i just watched my guy cuzzies play billiard slash pool slash whatever you call it. and i didn't know how to play so i was super bored. HAHAH. stayed in my aunt's house for about 4 hours sleeping and doing nothing coz srsly, there was nothing to do. and some cousins of mine ditched me at the house -_- so yeah, christmas gone just like that. ahahha.

so YAY FINALLY BAGUIO. there'll be a hella lots of pics so beware thanks.

left bataan at about 7 in the morning and the travelling took about 5 to 6 hours. 

 ( i was so friggin sleepy thanks) 

oooo that's actually a nice candid photo ^ LOL. anyway... when we reached baguio i think it was about 17 degrees? coz it's up up up the mountains. it was super cold but i like those kind of weathers haha. where the sun is shining so brightly but the weather is colddd~~ it's a super nice feeling ♥ 

so we ended the day like that :) anndddd i think i should stop here now coz i think there'll be too much photos for this post. hahaha!! will post pt. III soon!! and i hope part 3'll be the last post of my philippines trip hehehehe. 

to be honest, posting pictures on my blog is not really...... my style? idk? but since i'm not such a big fan of facebook, i guess blogspot is a better platform to post about my journeys plus their pictures. 

so yeah, until next time guys!

@maryxtinylamb

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2K14 + philippines trip pt. I

happy new year guys!
this'll be my first blog this year so i'll be updating about my trip in the philippines :)

left singapore on the 18th and lived in my uncles house in makati for a day.
on the 19th, we left for sta. rosa, laguna where my grandparents live. since we didnt have much cousins there, we spent most of our times going out of the house shopping, etc. hehe

forgot where we went on the 19th and 20th, but on the 21st we went to TAGAYTAY ♥

writing some names ~ gifts for my special friends back in singapore!!

we went horseback riding woohoo!! the horse's tailbone was hurting my butt though.

with our grandpa and grandmaaaaaa outside the souvenir shop :)

 there's my mom. in the middle. she's not our sister. 

yay. solo. this horse kept on going rounds. i wanted it to run lol but i didn't know how to speak in tagalog fluent so yeah 

so yay bye bye tagaytayyyy

after that we went to nuvali/solenad 1 and 2 to eat dinner and meet some old friends :) sadly, i didnt take much pictures and i'm too lazy to reach for the memory card right now lol so sorry, no photos :p 

on the 22nd night, we went to bataan!! yay! it's where my mom and her relatives live and we have many many many many cousins thereeee so it's really exciting there. since it was already night, we slept after eating dinner LOL. 

the next day we finally visited our cousins! 

we went on a cousin outing together hehehe ♥ 

 (poor cousin taking the photo. he's not in the shot xD sorry kuya aeron.) 

we went to eat at macdonald's. (and we saw one of my cousin's crush there lol) 

guess what we ate? friggin coffee float ♥ we dont have those in singapore :p 

after macdonald's, we went bowling WHOO.
I was their 'secret weapon' since i couldnt get a score.
the ball kept on rolling into the gutter LMAO. 

 (you can see a little bit of my tummy there coz i was wearing a crop)

i got scolded by the fellow man in black (with the blue ball) in the picture for wearing skirts and shorts in bataan. he said that it was too revealing and i was attracting too many eyes LOL.
and so when we finally decided to go home, we saw our aunt and uncle there and they decided to libre us (treat us) in chowking ♥♥ eat again HAHA LOL. we spoiled brats.

(that's the guy who scolded me lol)

(acting sexy — failed.)

woohoo cousins together <3 

gna continue pt. II in my next blogpost so stay tuned!

p.s. most of the pictures are from facebook btw so if you're my fb friend i think you'll find the pics quite familiar haha

@maryxtinylamb
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