i know everyone has faced this before. caring too much.
people say that when you care too much, you'll just get hurt.
even though you know you'll get hurt, you continue caring.
you'll care for the person no matter what because he or she is important to you.
no matter what he or she says, you will continue to care because he or she is someone you love.
i care for people a bit too much that it hurts. no matter what you say to me, i will never give you up.
but now it has come to a point where caring too much affects our friendship, and affects me too.
sometimes i just think, what would have happened if i didn't care too much.
i care for you from afar.
you just don't realise it.
i don't know if you even realise all those small little hints in my messages.
(or maybe you just don't want to say anything about it.)
sometimes, it silently hurts when you don't notice my efforts.
sometimes, it silently hurts when you don't take me seriously.
and sometimes, it silently hurts when you reply me with a joke.
i just don't understand why i care for you so much when i don't even know if you feel the same way.
i don't understand why i'm always having you in my mind.
i don't understand why or how you became so important to me and that i'm scared to lose you.
or maybe i'm just scared because i'm not as important to you than you are to me.
i'm scared of losing you one day.
but at the same time sometimes i just think of ending our friendship.
because it hurts me to see you hurt,
and it hurts me because i can't do anything about it.
would ending our friendship mean anything to you?
or maybe you wouldn't even feel a thing.
cause again, i'm not as important to you than you are to me.
then again, maybe if we did i'd still be caring for you from afar.
because i just care too much.
(p.s. this is not a love confession lol.)
@maryxtinylamb
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