i'm sorry for ignoring you.
i'm sorry for disappointing you.
i'm sorry for frustrating you.
i'm sorry for not replying to your messages.
i'm sorry for not loving you right.
i'm sorry for not being the person you thought i was.
i never dare to say what i really feel.
i'm always thinking of how pointless it is to tell you about how i truly feel
since it's something i have to fix within myself.
it's a fight within me, that even i myself is confused about.
i don't even understand myself
how will i be able to understand what's going on with other people?
it's funny of how people can create such great masks;
hiding all of their feelings
even being so convincing that people don't even know that they're hiding.
the truth is buried.
it seems as if the facade they put on is the real them.
it's amazing of how people do that.
i'm sorry for always being ignorant.
i'm sorry for being selfish.
i'm sorry for being an introvert and always keeping to myself.
i'm sorry for not being as great as her.
when you think you've gone through the worst,
but yet another earthquake strikes you.
you think that old scars are just reminders.
these scars are about to make new friends.
she's not as perfect as you thought she was.
she has flaws
which she keeps to herself.
you think the real person lies before you?
you thought wrong.
burning out.
feeling numb.
sharp knives.
go on.
can't.
i'm sorry for being unreachable.
i'm sorry for being so far away.
i'm sorry for having so many imperfections.
i'm sorry for being so weak.
you don't like how i act? me neither.
