Times have changed.

I'm coming back to this blog after a few years. Reading all my blog posts, I realise... I am still the same person. It kind of hurts seeing that I am still as sensitive as ever. It still hurts seeing all the heartbreaks I used to face, looking back at the 13-year old me having to over-exaggerate the life she was living.

It's October, and I'm 18 now. Despite the fact that 5 years have passed since I first posted on this blog, sometimes I still find myself reading my old posts and realising that I haven't exactly changed. I still have unanswered questions and sometimes I feel like I'm not moving an inch from my shell. Sometimes I feel like I'm just purposely doing this to protect myself, and sometimes the reason is as bright as day - to get the attention I seek from people who care.

It's been 5 years since this journey of self-seeking and insecurities started, and reflecting about it, I'm still unsure of whether I have made any progress in my self-growth. I would like to think that this journey of mine is normal, that all in their teens face. Sometimes I think that something is wrong with my brain because I overthink my situations way too much and I shed too many tears over-exaggerating issues and problems I face. Sometimes I think that there's really something wrong with my brain, and sometimes I convince myself that I am completely sane and ordinary.

Times have changed, scientifically and logically, but sometimes I feel like my world never moves. Time doesn't change, because sometimes I just feel the same.